Saturday, 4 May 2013
the writer's edition - month 2 check-in
I still find it very hard to validate myself as a writer. This is such a hard thing to do. It's so much easier to have a concrete job with guaranteed earnings at the end. When you put yourself on the line creatively, in the beginning there are no commissions, it's a project you take on yourself, all at your own risk. It's one of those things that can easily make you lose confidence and detour away again from the writing process. You can see evidence of this in the author's section of books - just look at how many different jobs many writers have had, the roles they've auditioned for as they've danced around their love of writing.
In my own life, I've started courses and not finished them, worked in all sorts of different roles from administration to accounts, retail, catering and farm work. And throughout all that time, I've wanted to write. I've spoken before about my bottom drawer, filled with writing projects I've started, then put away as I quickly lost confidence. It didn't matter that I had teachers at school who said then that I would be a writer when I grew up - I needed to find a proper job! It's the same for artists and musicians, anyone with a creative bent. It's that putting yourSELF on the line and saying you're game for the challenge.
And with Jono at home, I may as well use my time productively. There are no financial outlays for the time I spend writing, it doesn't take up much time during the day, 250 words is a manageable goal and it's giving me the most unimaginable amount of pleasure, I can't tell you! To be so supported by Joe in this process is amazing. As a creative person himself, he really gets where I'm coming from, which is terrific. We both know it could take two, three, four or more attempts (as in manuscripts!) to get my writer's voice heard... which is scary, but I'm going to try!
Wish me luck!